I had been busy.. very busy.. super busy.. DAMD it BUSY!!! :(

I dont know why i have to work.
I supposed can stay at home not need to work BUT why i choosed the way.
I dont know.
work for money?
work for spending ur life to get more experiences on work?
work for fun?
work for get those shit pleasure?
work for no time to go shopping and hang out with those dearest buddies?
work for have no my own time and life?
work for when i old i can get a comfort life or fill full my life?
I really dont know why!!
I confuse.....

I want my life back!

Sometimes,
I will blame my bf why i promised him to get a job.. *sigh*
I should blame myself more than him.

I want to go HOLIDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
I want a long term holiday..... like two weeks... one month i prefer :P